It has been a long-ass time since I've written anything... The last 6 months have been really tough on me mentally and emotionally. I'm super prone to depression and anxiety; and since losing my job in October, I've been an emo mess. But I come bearing
This is gonna be a long story, but I'll try to keep it as short as possible.
So, I've been trying
Just a quick recap: I was working at a pretty well known spa here in town. Things were going great! I loved doing what I did and really felt like I was coming into my own as an Esthetician. But it wasn't perfect. about 3 months into my employment I started to realize some things that were not so great. The owner was NEVER in the spa. She would come in every few weeks to get her nails done or have a spa day. But as far as actually running the spa, she was nowhere to be found. On top of that, the Spa Director that she hired HAD NO IDEA HOW TO RUN A SPA and was also rarely in said spa for more than an hour a day.
There was a situation where a client experienced some redness after a brow wax. Redness and even a little irritation is PERFECTLY NORMAL after ripping your hair out from the root. But this lady called to complain so the owner decided to remove me from all waxing services until I could "be re-trained." This was a HUGE blow to my confidence as an Esthetician, even though I knew that it really wasn't because of anything I had done wrong, just a result of the management not knowing the first thing about Esthetics and not taking the lead Estheticians advice that I had done nothing wrong.
About two weeks later I was reinstated to do waxing, not because of more training, but because they realized that I had done nothing wrong and they needed me to start waxing again due to high demand. But the damage was already done. I was so nervous about doing anything that could potentially get me removed from services again. I started having this feeling that I should start looking for a new job, but I thought it was just my anxiety and it would pass.
It never passed and I realized that it was my intuition. Somehow I knew the spa was going to close, I just didn't know that's what I knew (huh?). My intuition is rarely wrong, I just never learn my lesson and actually listen to it. Any way, I had this persistent feeling that I needed to get a new job, but still I ignored it...
One day the owner sat us down and told us that she didn't want to own the spa anymore and that she was going to sell it. She said if it didn't sell within a certain amount of time that she would close. One night, while I was at Target shopping for Halloween decorations with my Mom, my boss sent out a group text that she was closing the spa as of that night and we could come by the next day to collect our personal things.
Needless to say my experience at "SpaX" jaded me pretty badly. I was worried that other spas might be like "X." I was afraid other owners would "punish" their employees the same way I felt "X" had punished me (even though they said I wasn't being punished, I felt like I was). So I put off looking for a job. I made a few rounds around town but mostly avoided looking. Not to mention, any time I did take my resume out, I felt like I was completely disregarded.
So, fast forward to today! I officially start working tomorrow, and this spa has been open for 20 years, and owned by the same people that whole time!! Not to mention that the Spa Director IS an Esthetician, so I am confident that they know what they are doing!
The last 6 months I've not been feeling any inspiration to wear makeup let alone write or film about it.... Now that I'm getting back to work, I'm also starting to feel that spark of inspiration, in the back of my mind, growing bigger and brighter! It's very exciting!! I haven't even been watching too many beauty related YouTube videos (mostly just politics and food...) but last night I binge-watched a bunch of makeup tutorials!
I can feel the fog thinning. It's not gone completely, but I can see a little further in front of me!
I've also been doing A TON of furniture flipping, so I'll probably have a few posts on that, because why not?
That's all I have to say for now, I hope that wasn't too long-winded, I tried to cut out anything that wasn't important. I hope you will come back and read about my adventures flipping furniture and using chalk paint, because I've been having so much fun and really feel like I'm learning a lot!!!
Thanks for stopping by, you are GORGEOUS!!